delmar hello.
my name is delmar.

actually, it is an abbreviation from my full name: MaDELeine, MARissa.

i was born on july, under the sign Leo. find out all about Leo, and you will find out almost 95% of my custom :)

la vie en rose : actually is a song originally performed by Edith Piaf.

it always reminds me of the strength of love and youth and i can't get enough of it. so i thought, it would be nice if i put that spirit into my blog.

anyway,
this blog is nothing but random thoughts, notes, links, pics, and whatever things across my mind. please bare with it :)

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Sunday, October 30, 2005 the list

i made a list of what i missed since i'm unemployed. and to my surprise, the list gets sooo long, i didn't realize that i have those things secured back then. guess we'll always don't know what we've got till it's gone, eh?

1. wake up lazily at 7.30 (or 8) every morning, and brew my first cup of coffee


2. or, wake up lazily at 6 in the morning for the last couple month, when my new manager made us ready at 7 at the counter -- without coffee


3. cold shower in the morning - that kills, especially when i have to wash my hair


4. ironing clothes to wear


5. the hectic last minutes preparing stuffs to bring


6. the hectic hours catching up busses


7. that blue-shirt-with-stripes-tie guy at 6th bus stop :) -- i wonder, would i see him again..


8. jericho - nice man at the front gate :) -- how's your wife now?


9. my gray locker at the corner :(


10. changing booth


11. that black uniform


12. girlfriends from other division


13. gossips in restroom


14. mute giggles behind his back


15. nametag (hey! but i bring it home. where did i put that thing?)


16. unlimited credit to call (for official purpose, of course. but hey, checking how's he doing is also official, right? :D)


17. unlimited online time (de jure. but de facto, i could only use it as long as i'm in office. it's enough, tho)


18. bakso pak kardi, rujak depan yang super pedas, mie ayam pangsit mas jangkung, tongseng belakang. yummy..


19. cute customer(s). hihihi


20. 4pm coffee time with boss :)


21. flirty times with that-careless-but-cute-DHL-guy (and few customers. hehehe)


22. that ugly pinkish paper - with several numbers on it that keep me sane. hehehe..


23. long and unstopable debate.


24. unbelievably hi-tech end-user PC (plus its 17 inch flat monitor. haha!)


25. special rate for employe


26. the opportunity to try new gadgets


27. occasionally official splendid gala dinner


28. paid late hours


29. outing


30. and so much more..

there goes my 3 wonderful years unconsciously.
i miss those things now. seriously.

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Friday, October 28, 2005 pics

me : let's take a pic together! you and me
him : no. i don't think we should do that
me : why?
him : because .. then, you'll put it in your blog, and everyone sees it, and i've had enough already putting my pics online
me : oh, nooo .. i won't do that. it's for my documentation only
him : then, why should you take our pics again? we took those countless other time before..
me : but darling, .. those pics are indecent to put into my blog *ooops!*
him : hah! see! .. i knew it!


(why is it sooo hard for me synchronizing my mind and my mouth?)
*evil grin*

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Thursday, October 27, 2005 help!

i am desperately looking for a new job.

the one that won't take my whole entire productive life; which would give me enough space to increase my talents and abilities; which would appreciate what i'm doing perfectly and correcting what should be without underestimating; which i can rely on to extend my future.

he came up suggesting that i should start to build my own.

huh! look who's talking. if only i were as good as him..

he said:
"look, you're pretty, you're beautiful. you could be a model" (while in such a manner word, once he told me that i'm getting fatter now. hah!)

he said:
"you move in constant beauty. you could try to be a dancer"

and he said:
"you draw beautifully. you write nicely. you could try to be a writer or even drawing comic books of your own"

also, he said:
"you play violin and guitar perfectly. i think you'd become a great musician if you want to"


i want to. i'd try anything. and if you think i'm good at those, why don't YOU hire me? (and he replied: "darling, if i hire you, then we would be in deep trouble. because employer shouldn't be having affair with his employee..")

haha!
nice thought! how could he came up with that anyway?

grrrhh.. help!!
i draw, i write, i dance, i even mix coffee perfectly. plus, i'm gorgeous, so i'm told :)

does anybody out there want to HIRE me?

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Sunday, October 23, 2005 ..trying to, babe..

him : will you reduce your coffee time, honey? .. it's just not good for you. you consume caffeine too much.
me : i'm sorry, but i just can't help it..
him : hey, here's the deal .. if you could reduce your coffee time, i'll reduce taking outside jobs, so we could be together much longer. what do you think about that?
me : but, darling .. your outside jobs ARE your jobs. how could you reduce it?
him : i'll manage. besides, it's my forfeit. you reduce your liking, i'll reduce mine. okay?
me : mmm .. what about your ciggies?
him : AND my ciggies, of course. that, as well.
me : hug him

okay. now, i must reduce my coffee time. it's been too much already, i believe, since i lost my job. *sigh*. help me.

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Thursday, October 20, 2005 are we in love? .. :)

we were fillin out a quiz of "how much you love each other".

it turned out: we DID NOT love each other that much!
slightly anxious, he asked me whether i filled it out correctly.

me : of course, i am
him : then, how could we missed the big one? (the score, he means)
me : well, i don't know. did you fill it out correctly?
him : mmm ..
me : did you?
him : well .. i cheated.
me : what??
him : i copied all your answers..


bwahahahahaaa .. no wonder!
after all, quizes WON'T tell of how much we love each other.
because WE DON'T. *grin*

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Thursday, October 13, 2005 FUNemployment! :D

him : what did you do all day?
me : well, .. santi came, and we spent a whole day reading, chitchatting, and swimming
him : wow. what a nice day
me : yes, indeed, it was
him : didn't you worry about not working all day?
me : i was WORKING. reading and chitchatting and swimming IS working!
him : mmm .. i mean, UNEMPLOYMENT
me : hahaha .. darling, that's NOT unemployment. according to santi and me, that was FUNemployment!!
him : *grins*

yes, i know, i don't need anybody to tell me that i am now unemployed. that's enough. i need a break for awhile. i'll get back to a REAL working situation in no time soon. just sit back, wait, and relax, dear. i'm so into it :)

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damn you!

him : you're out of shape.
me : *??@*%&??!!*
him : yea, you do. you'll look fat if i took your pics.
me : what?? no i did not!
him : yes, you did to.
me : i did not!
him : you did to!
me : gowd! look who's talking, you skinny bones!
him : me talking. i might be too skinny, but you're getting fat, babe.

out of all his openness, his honesty, sure he doesn't know how to talk to a girl. damn you!

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005 to dearest ..

Hi..
I was wondering if I could talk to you for a minute before you go ..

See,
the thing is .. that .. uh, .. well .. mmm, I got fired.

No, it's okay ..
What happened was that .. um .. I kind of got this arcane glimpse of the universe, and the best thing that I can say about that .. is .. umm .. I don't know ..

I have this .. this huge planet of regrets .. sitting on my shoulders.
And you have no idea how much I wish that I could go back to that morning after we made love, and do everything differently.

But I know that I can't. So..

I thought that I would came here and tell you something.
And what I wanted to tell you was .. that .. I love you.
And, mmm, .. I just wanted to make sure that that was clear ..
So that there wasn't any confusion ..

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sountrack of (y)our life ..

there are so many sad songs i could recommend to be your sountracks of your sad, sad, sad life now. which, i could presume, also mine for the time being.

what do you like?
who would you listen to?

i know; we knew each other too damn well .. and if i ever had to chose one for you, i'd chose what we don't like, so in that way, we'll heal sooner. isn't that so?

anyway,
please do understand, that i really, really get what you said. and that that's fine with me. fine, as in; we don't need to argue about it anymore. you were right, as always, and i can take it, and i can live with it, and no more topics about it.

so, .. until we meet again ..


x.o.x.o,
[maris]

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spilling the beans..

i'm having a hard time admitting something to a friend. i just can't explain it. the words are stuck in my throat. my mind is screaming the whole fucking sentence but my mouth is on mute.

but maybe the reason why i can't spit it out is that i haven't accepted that 'thing' myself. i'm in denial.

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Friday, October 07, 2005 (katanya) buka bersama :)

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Thursday, October 06, 2005 menthol = mandul = gila ..

t.y.g.* : kamu ngga takut mandul karena ngerokok mentol, mar?
aku : ngga. ga papa ah ..
t.y.g. : aku juga ngga peduli. eh, ngomong-ngomong, minta rokoknya donk ..
aku : *grrrmbll..* (bilang aja mau minta rokok! pake ngomongin mandul segala..)

***

t.y.g. : menurut kamu, lebih baik mana; mandul tapi nikah, atau vertil** tapi lajang?
aku : kalo aku sih .. aku ga pernah mikirin nikah. jadi ya sama aja, toh?
t.y.g. : wah .. kewl! kalau aku .. aku lebih baik mandul, nikah ataupun ngga.
aku : kenapa begitu? karena kamu mau minta rokokku lagi ya?
t.y.g. : itu juga .. aku minta rokokmu lagi yaa.. *tuh, kan! sial!* aku ngga peduli kalau aku mandul .. soalnya dengan demikian, aku bisa nyetrum terus sana sini tanpa repot mikirin Mr.C atau mikirin cewenya halim atau ngga ..



bwahahahahahahaaaa..
kami terbahak.

temanku yang satu itu memang super-duper betul gilanya.

maaf ya, 'kang! :)


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*) t.y.g. : temanku yang gila -- hehehehe
**) vertil : subur, lawan dari mandul (steril, dalam istilah ginekologi-nya)

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Wednesday, October 05, 2005 motor lagi .. motor lagi

pertama: lampu rem mati -- sempat kena 'semprit'
kedua : ban bocor -- mesti ganti ban dalam
ketiga : kena tilang karena .. lupa bayar pajak STNK!
keempat : kena denda karena keterlambatan bayar pajak STNK!

oh, well .. what next?
*sigh*

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005 *sigh*

me : let me rephrase .. you said you will be there ONLY for 2 weeks, right?
him : yes. 2 weeks. that's all.
me : so, that means .. i have to wait for you for AT LEAST 2 MONTHS. isn't that right?
him : *grins*

we both know it; we knew each other too damn well..

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Sunday, October 02, 2005 bali blast II (again?)

 













with the deepest symphaty for all the victims ..

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Saturday, October 01, 2005 1 liter 4500?!

what?!
yang bener aja!!

PS: mas, aku ga berani bawa motor lagi ..

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